I’m a little late with Happy New Year’s wishes, but I do hope this year brings something better to all of us. I know that the premise of New Year’s resolutions may seem cliche, but I do believe in looking forward and re-assessing goals. For me, the last year has definitely been a mixed bag of successes and colossal failures. This post is about to get a bit raw, so if the sight of exposed nerves makes you queasy or you were hoping to read something that tickles the old pickle, it is time to make your exit.
There are many things that I am very grateful for over the last year including moving into my new home on the bay, meeting some incredible new hypno-friends, getting my store set up, and evolving as an artist. It is staggering how many creative and original people I have encountered this year and that surely tops my list of hoorays.
On the flip side, I am quite disappointed with too many things from the last year. I consider myself an optimist so it is a little surprising for the list to be so damned long. My move to the bay has cost me in many ways, including my long-time collared submissive, cuckold, and friend. I’ve been sick on and off since I got here. As a result, I have not even had much of a chance to enjoy my new digs. The possibly most upsetting thing is that somewhere along the line in 2010, I apparently forgot how to say “no” and draw a firm line in the sand. I have allowed far too many people to take up far too much of my time without having any respect for the fact that this is all I do and who I am. If you are wondering as you read this if you are one of “those people”, then I am definitely not speaking about you. The people I am referring to are so self-entitled that it would never occur to them for one solitary second that I could be making a reference about them. I pay my bills with hypnosis and hypnosis only. As much as I have a passion for hypnosis, I also have a passion for not being homeless. If I have to endure criticism and live under the assumption that I am only a commercial hypnotist, then so be it.
Any person that has taken the time to know me, knows that I am not going to leave things on a negative note. I have made my resolutions and I suppose time will only tell if I am able to keep them. Here’s my short list.
- Be more active in my favorite erotic hypnosis communities.
- Triple my Erotic Hypnosis MP3 catalogue.
- Be available for live sessions much more often.
- Make Hypnotessa.com much more personal and intimate.
- Remain approachable while enforcing boundaries.
- Give naysayers and critics a tube of lipstick and directions to my ass. I’m not making any apologies for my choices in my art or decisions to not be available on demand.
One thing that I should add is that I adore each and every one of you that have taken the time to know me and accept me as I am, flaws and all.
*smooches*
Tessa
****Don’t forget to check out the awesome article written about me by stage hand on Inraptured HERE. If you are not familiar with his awesomeness, please check out his site Hypnotic Addiction.