I’m feeling so overwhelmed with gratitude right now that I’m not even sure where to begin.Before I do begin, let me say that I have the BEST fans, friends, and admirers.
I asked that you open up and review sessions and you did! I am so pleased to see the influx on my store and Inraptured.net. I know not everyone feels comfortable posting publicly and I want you to know that I really loved the private testimonials!
I asked you to join me on Inraptured and so many of you did. You have been such a welcome addition to the site. I also love having yet another venue to communicate with you and get to know you better.
I posted about a rescue dog needing surgery and you stepped up! The advocacy group told me that my boys practically paid for the surgery with their donations alone. I was awed seeing so many of you give without any promised reward.
I wanted new equipment. You stepped up! I’ve been learning to use it and hope to have new sessions recorded on it by July.
My doorstep and inbox has been full of surprises from my Amazon wishlist gifts and tributes. Do you know how truly amazing it feels to be thought of without provocation? I suppose the argument could be made that you are all helplessly hypnotized, but I suppose I like to think of it my way. When I open a box from Amazon, my first thought is not “Yay! I got that new book I wanted.” My first reaction is “I wonder why he felt compelled to gift me something so kind.” Of course, I love the gifts. I’m not going to pretend I don’t. My wishlist is limited to 25 items because these are what I want or need the most. The thought that you want to brighten my day with something I want so much is truly amazing.
Sometimes, when I give things away and don’t receive so much as a thank you, it can be pretty disappointing. I would like to think that the efforts of my favorite fellas makes up for that….karma I guess? I can think of 6 particular boys that are going to receive something special from me next week. Are you secretly hoping right now that you are one of them?
I’ve got to wrap this up, but before I do, I have a question. What is on your mind when you get the idea to send me a gift?
Sorry Tessa, I’m not giving away my secrets.
I know my gifts may not be the most extravagant, but when I send you my tributes I’m thinking “She deserves my money more than I do because she’s. ..Tessa”
That sounds corny or like asskissing but it’s true. Sending you something is a big sacrifice for me and a token of my devotion and to be brutally honest, makes me rock hard, if you can forgive my crudeness; there’s nothing more erotic than that feeling of taking from me to give to you.
Making you happy without expecting anything in return should be my place. Isn’t that what being submissive to someone means? Placing your needs beneath their desires?
I know I am not one of the 6 but knowing that I’m still your obsessed subject is its own reward. Thank you for allowing me to be liberated. There’s freedom in being free to serve. Love that fucking line.
So no…thank YOU Tessa. I know monetary gifts are pleasing but if there’s anything at all I can do to please you I want to do it for the simple pleasure of serving you.
@Matty I already know all of your secrets so ;-P
@jonathan Crudeness is more than forgiven. I’m a fan of the truth, regardless of the packaging!
On this question there is no simple answer. To say I act under hypnotic influence is too simple. Hypnosis works as a kind of leverage or enhancement but it is not the full answer.
To fully enjoy the sweet feeling of submission it is not enough to just call you Mistress. The feelings of adoration, a heavy crush, craving your approval and attention start to develop and get stronger. I want to be near you – serve you. But like in the case of a knights service in medieval courtly love the ideal of beauty and adoration is honored but the Mistress remains unreachable and high above the knight. ( I do believe that there is more kinky aspects behind courtly love than history text books tell us). For the pleasure of submission – accepting the role as slave, pet, servant, knight – whatever – Mistress gains importance. And sending gifts is a way to show this adoration, to live up with the idea of service. And the hope of a smile or thank you in a short message really is heaven – even if it is wrapped in a little tease or humiliation. (humiliation comes from humility which is a knights virtue – and isn’t it the best way to show humility by enduring a little humiliation for Mistress’ amusement?)
But there is more than adoration – there is desire, sexual desire – multiplied by denial and chastity. Desire given or enforced by Mistress. In the weakest, most horny moments a desire roller coaster starts. No – not a roller coaster – a wheel of fortune that is turned and turned and stops at kinky or deviant ideas or actions. I crave any sexual action and as cock and orgasm are off limit any surrogate that the wheel might show is irresistible. A gift can bring sometimes alleviation.
But there is more than adoration or desire. It is also curiosity. What is Mistress doing, what is Mistress up to, what is she thinking, wanting? The wish-list items are your personal selection. And it creates a fantasy of closeness to think about “How will Mistress look in this dress?” “What will she cook with these knives”. Sometimes such toughs can end up in a serious daydream. Before I opened your wish list I had no idea what “Dance Paws” were. Barefoot dancing is erotic. Than I imagines how you dance in them and – dirty dirty mind of mine – I cannot get the images out of my head – what an eager slave might want to do to your hot feet in steaming dance paws!
Curiosity, adoration and desire all mixed together and enhanced and channeled by hypnosis. Yes that is it.
When I choose to send gifts I do it out of respect and admiration. I love the creativity and skill you demonstrate in every file as well the potency of the post-hypnotic effects that always surprise me. It is really cool too how you are prepared to be so open in sharing aspects of your personality and insightful views with us through things like your blogs. The more I discover about you the more I continue to realise how amazing you are.
I feel like Tessa brings me a lot of joy so it seems only natural for me to send her gifts to make her smile.
Wait a minute! Are you insinuating that I have my own thoughts. Last time I look into my brain, everything was as usual: Tessa in the middle, Tessa´s piercing green eyes to the left and Tessa´s breasts to the right.
I guess my reasons are very diverse; some of them, very pure and some of them, very selfish.
Probably I also believe in Karma, and I think that a woman who makes me pass so many wonderful moments deserves a gift. Moreover, I don´t want to be hit with my winning lottery ticket in my pocket. Or even worse, that you don´t record a new session anymore.
This could be a new reason, the fear that you could stop recording if you don´t feel the appreciation of your followers, what could led us to a new reason.
A genuine sign of my admiration for your art. Great artists receive gifts like a recognition to their talent. Even Justin Bieber receives gifts.There is no doubt my favourite artist deserves it.
Of course, Jonathan´s reason is important too. Serving an intelligent, beautiful, dominant woman arouses me. So these gifts or actions make the sensation of serving you more real.
And finally, a sincere thankful because you bring magic and entertainment to my life.
Well, I would still add one more. For receiving your thank you mail, I must confess I always jump when I see it in my inbox. Probably because I have the secret hope that comes with an address and two words: “Come quickly.”