So…now that I have your attention 😉 I was in group Skype chat a few weeks ago and was asked a question by a long time fan of my hypnotic works that I never really considered before. “Tessa, just what are your kinks? You never really talk about them.” I was floored, to say the least. Somehow, I thought I had or at a minimum, thought it was obvious. The answer really isn’t simple so instead I hope you’ll indulge me while I share a story.
When I was a little girl, I was obsessed with the thought of magic. The thought of making someone say yes when the brain said no was exciting. I wasn’t interested in parlor tricks. I wanted real witch in a pointy hat magic. I wanted to fly. I wanted to be invisible. I wanted to make my dad take me to the library every day and not just Saturdays. I would actually stay up at night sort of stressed out over whether or not it was real or could be real.
I was an academically gifted kid and like all annoying know it all kids, I became fairly bossy. I come from a family of strong women, so it was in the cards regardless. There are countless videos of me as a child bossing my cousins around. While we played “house” at other kid’s houses, we played “bank” and “president” at my house. I think you can probably guess by now who the president was or the bank manager. In my room, Barbie never married Ken and had babies. Ken cleaned the house and rubbed Barbie’s feet after a long day at the office.
In my teenage years, I was still bossy. I grew up around a ton of rich kids while we were upper middle class at best. While I was grateful that my parents sacrificed so we could live in a nice area and have access to a great education, it would have been hard to compete with kids getting BMWs for their sixteenth birthday and allowances that rivaled my parents income. I decided the only way to survive socially was to be the best at everything I could control. I gave horseback riding lessons and created and sold items in the boutique at my mother’s salon for cash. I turned my dance experience into co-captain of my cheer squad. I also used my bossiness and boobs to manipulate those around me. I was a leader and although I’m a bit ashamed to admit it, I was kind of a bitch. I developed my love of femme fatale characters during this period too. The more wicked they were, the sexier I thought they were.
Fast forward to my college and adult life…I’m a sexually assertive woman with a bossy side. I don’t seem to fit into vanilla relationships. I turned to BDSM thinking it was the only sector that would accept a woman like me. While wielding a whip and pressing my heels into the chest of a begging submissive boy was sexy and will always have a place in my heart, I wasn’t getting what I wanted. I’m a sensual person and could never really find the right balance. It took me several years to get out of the lifestyle and figure out what I really wanted.
Along the way, I discovered hypnosis when I was looking to quit smoking. I started to see a little magic there and decided this was what I wanted to do. A well-known, but sadly now inactive hypnodomme introduced me to femdom hypnosis a few years later. I was instantly intrigued and hooked. A vehicle that combined a sense of magic and my sensual, dominant side? I was in. Like a lot of ladies, I felt that I had to appeal to what was in fashion in the hypno scene and took a couple of years to really find my rhythm.
So here is where I really answer the question. I love the idea of creating want. I want your body to beg for my control before your mind even catches up. I want to seduce you, confuse you, and watch you dangle like a puppet on string when that want is overwhelming. My current and future erotic hypnosis sessions reflect the real me. Every past part of me resides there too. I get aroused playing with your thoughts and body. Sometimes the sensual side of me just wants to devour you while every now and then that bitchy cheerleader wants to gently tease you. When I start an induction, I feel like that witch casting a spell. That femme fatale in me wants to flirt with danger and seduce you with my body and mind while masterfully mindfucking your weakened mind.
A short list of things I love, although rarely all at the same time:
My breasts
Hypnosis
Control
Bondage
Your begging
SEX
Energy exchange
Dangerous women
Taking the tough guy down
Teasing humiliation (not soul crushing)
Body worship
Sexily seducing a new handbag out of a man, not ruining him to the point of a cardboard box on the corner
Chastity
Tease & Denial
Things I don’t love and will most likely not provide any longer:
Severe findom
Feminization
Pain
Thank you if you’ve read this far. I wanted to provide more than just a list. We are all products of our environments and experiences. While to some I am Mistress, Goddess, etc. and I like it that way, this is just about me as a real life, every day woman that is lucky enough to get to share myself with all of you…just as I am. No excuses or apologies. Just Tessa
One last thing, I also love to ambush my admirers. I call it getting “boobed.” I send out random cleavage shots like this…
Love your kinks! 🙂 specially Hypnosis, your breasts and “Taking the tough guy down” LOL
I like boobs.
Love this blog! Looks like you’re on the mend.
I love this post. Femme fatale and the magic involved with hypnosis. I have a mind quite rational and curious. But, in the case of hypnosis, I have made an exception. From the beginning I didn’t want to find out more than the essential about hypnosis. I’d rather feeling it like it was magic. Oh, and how much I love the concept of an ambush!. We could say that a sexy woman that unexpectedly puts me under her spell, making me fulfill every desire of hers, without I can resist despite my efforts, it would be a very sexy fantasy for me. Because it’s only fantasy, isn’t it?
Thank you Tessa for this post, thank you for the “boobambush” and thank you for being so Tessa. I don’t know why, but I feel an irresistible urge to go to Tessa’s Chamber.
Thank you for sharing this – I love to read such posts. I think it is amazing how certain likings develop already in early childhood. Kids play a lot of different things and sometimes we stick to certain games and get older and still like the same roles best. The sexual aspects might add to it later and is just one part of it. Looking back it makes total sense. I always wanted to be a knight – and loved the stories, but not because of the weapons or armor but because they served the ladies. I loved the concept that the strongest knight in the end will submit to a lady – a better reward in my eyes than to become the king. And in my role-plays I always tried to find a queen to submit to. I think I also had a foot interest when I was a child. I loved to watch wiggling toes. And today I can be “boobed” – like right now – but more easily I can be “toed” or “feeted”.
Thank you so much for sharing this. What you find sexy is what I find sexy. I love everything about your attitude and you are the absolute PERFECT dominant woman. I wasn’t surprised to see that feminization isn’t something you love. Judging from what I’ve always known about you, you don’t want to turn a manly man into a woman, you want to keep that manliness to yourself and just make him serve.
But the part about “hypnosis as magic” really struck a chord. I’m an atheist and a huge skeptic; I don’t buy into Bigfoot or astrology or that kind of thing and my sense of wonder is usually limited to scientific breakthroughs, like finding the Higgs Boson. Kinda boring, right? It’s still wonderful, but not the same.
But hypnosis is the closest thing to magic that I know *actually* exists. I know that hypnosis works, because look at me. I’m helplessly obsessed with you and I know that a lot of it is psychological manipulation and straight up lust, but I can’t ignore the effect your voice and suggestions have had on me and to me that’s a lot like magic. You fulfill all of those fantasies that I thought would stay fantasies; mainly that feeling of most of me saying “yes yes yes” but a significant part cautioning me, but being unble to resist any way.
And you’re the one who is not only the best, but the one who introduced me to this wonderful world of hypnosis. So thank you.
And yeah, I really like your boobs too.
Tessa,
The more I read, the more my jaw dropped. Your descriptions of your development were vivid and I could almost see you commanding and ordering folks around. And to know that you used your powers as a cheerleader just sent a chill down my spine; I had such crushes on the cheerleaders in high school and thinking of you using your attitude and boobs as a cheerleader just kind of short circuits my brain.
Most of all, I love that you think of the beginning of a hypnosis session as casting a magic spell because what you do, and how we react to what you do, is magic to me, too. I get a feeling of power washing over me whenever I hear “This is Tessa Fields”. I want to hear that phrase over and over again because it’s a promise that what follows is going to be a wonderful adventure. You lead the way and I do my best to keep up
The rest of this post just gives me palpatations. “I want to seduce you, confuse you, and watch you dangle like a puppet on string when that want is overwhelming.” Yeah. That. Please?
May there be much, much more to come, Tessa.
And your boobs? May I drown in them again and again; I don’t need to breathe that badly. (And why aren’t there more pictures?!?)
i love reading about YOU! i hope YOU share more about YOURSELF! i wish YOU a great day!
Tessa, thank You so very much for directing me to the wonderful blog post! Your spell is so powerful, Your beauty beyond compare! It is my heart’s joy to sing, yes Tessa! Yes Tessa. Yes Tessa